Much more to come but for now the map of the travels. Docs orders to "get lost" and in turn "find myself". Things are improving but still not where they of course SHOULD BE but I can see progress which has me stoked. Good to see friends and do some fun stuff. I was so focused and driven that I never allowed myself much of any break. Always.pushing.harder. Mentally this trip was very much welcome.
Still coming is part 4: the mental ramifications.
(click on pic to enlarge)The route: http://bit.ly/9amQSr
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Marky V.......the "what time are you aiming for roughly at the beginning of IM 2006 and your Oh, about :52 and my Oh S&^t and sink and back paddle as the cannon goes off" and so begins the relationship of sorts where I find out who this guy is........Marky V!! Oly Trial background swimming; lots of 'stuff' there I can completely relate to. That day was to be the first I ever rode more than 100; ever ran more than 14 miles. Yep; one scary cruise:-) I got to watch you the next year; all in white; up front in mile 4 at the church on Alii; me holding my new 1 week old son. After all, in 06 I was 39 and a mom; not an IM athlete!! KP guided me into a beautiful execution and a spiritual experience. I cracked last year. Completely. Adrenal Fatigue. I understand your club. I read James Wilson's book and it's serious. I swam like you; from age 5 to age 24.......by then not even able to look at a pool. We do fare well on the bike once we learn to ride; and then that run; oh my; morphing a swimmers build into a long distance runner; takes lots of time and extremely difficult to accomplish without injury; though one would NEVER suspect the adrenals would give out. When they do; the road to discovery is long and the grief is huge. What the heck is wrong? Got it. Cortisol low; way too low on a morning draw...but remember; we've stressed our bodies to limits from years and years of early work....not just the birth of triathlon later in life. I don't really know you but I sure understood I was in the wrong danged spot in the lineup in 2006 and got crushed 2.4 miles to a disappointing 62 minutes and then recognized how much of a foot race this is; had our son at 40 yrs. of age and ran him in the jogger 18 mos.....fit, fit, fit......ignoring recovery and zones.....but had the 6 minutes miles coming my way. And then boom. The adrenals? WTHeck. I am 42 and have to be careful. Very careful. I invest a ton of money in Adrenal Rebuild all natural products; do exactly what KP says; no bonus miles or intensity; and since I am a girl, cry. I WILL HEAL MY ADRENALS........every day I tell myself this and have DEEP respect for what needs to be done and what it takes to feel the long lost love of joy. Marky V. I understand. I really do. I so appreciate, as a young man in his 20's......your transparency and I write because I am touched. I remember in 07; you out front raising your hands when I saw you with baby in hand up front....."Marky V" and laughed when I told my husband; that's the guy who sunk me on the swim last year; reminding me I was so in the wrong spot. You will heal. You will, you will you will........now is the time to take care of your body from the inside out; you haven't come this far to be dropped. I am at tjkona@aol.com on anything related to the issue. I understand. Mahalo Nui Loa, Jennifer Nottage
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